Current weight: 270lbs.

I’m still a Satanist.

I’m over a week into the month of Buddhism and I can’t shake meat, nor material desire, nor an overwhelming need to do anything except read up on Buddhism or meditate. The Devil dug his claws in deep it seems. I found complacency in that religion, and it seems to have followed me.

Meditation isn’t easy, but I don’t find it to be a hassle either. When I do find the time to do it, it is usually very relaxing. I usually try to just empty my mind and focus on my breathing, I haven’t actually tried to focus on a topic yet. Compassion should probably be the first order of business, it’s what I started mediating on during Jainism and I got some promising results.

Buddhism promises to provide something lasting, I suppose like most religions. Something beyond our every day desires and needs, something that will last when all else that makes us happy falls away.

An end to suffering and desire.

Scheduling this right behind Satanism was probably not the best idea.